(Meditating on Psalm 55)
Reading carefully the verses of Psalm 55, digesting once again every word, every phrase, I’m reminded of those dark days deep in the shadow of the valley of death, how I had cried out the same words to God as David had done.
My heart is severely pained within me,
And the terrors of death have fallen upon me.
Fearfulness and trembling have come upon me,
And horror has overwhelmed me.
So I said, “Oh, that I had wings like a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest.
Indeed, I would wander far off,
And remain in the wilderness. Selah
I would hasten my escape
From the windy storm and tempest. (Psalm 55: 4-8)
I have always loved reading the Psalms. These psalms where David had poured out his heart deeply resonate with me. Reading them in times of great suffering and moments of doubt and weakness has always brought tremendous comfort, it is as if his Spirit-inspired words are assuring me, “You are never alone. You’re in good company.”
Having gone through indescribable physical suffering which also had mental and emotional effects multiplying the hardship, I was amazed how ancient words that had been written thousands of years ago by a man who had lived aeons before me would echo the silent cries of my soul. (I had the same experience with the Book of Job). Indeed, I cannot count the times that I had longed to be like a bird and just fly away, far from the reach of pain and suffering.
But ultimately, it was my faith, strengthened by God’s Word, that I held onto in those moments of walking in the valley of the shadow of death. That kind of faith which believes and trusts that the Lord Jesus knows me; He knows my pain and suffering; His eyes are ever upon me, and He was there beside me in those moments when His strength and mercy were all I depended upon.
And just as David had trusted in God through all the seasons of his life and was always delivered, so the Lord had delivered me and His mercy continues to compass me about.