(Meditating on Psalm 69)
Save me, O God!
For the waters have come up to my neck.
2 I sink in deep mire,
Where there is no standing;
I have come into deep waters,
Where the floods overflow me. (Psalm 69:1-2)
One would open to the introduction page of my book Walking Along the Narrow Path and one would be greeted by this soul-piercing verse. This was exactly where I was, where the Lord had so mercifully fished me out.
The dusk gathered fast, once again threatening to steal what little strength, both mental and physical, I had left. I hadn’t known fear so real and powerful until the time that God had thought it good to end all my wallowing in the mire. Salvation comes in many different ways. Mine was knowing a kind of fear that could literally wipe out all sanity and physical strength.
Fear was a frequent visitor and when it came, panic enveloped and engulfed my whole being, choking the very life out of me. It was a debilitating, paralysing kind of fear. How could one escape such powerful grip? I didn’t know. My husband was beside me once and I told him, “Can you just lend me now some of your strength, just enough for me to be able to go through this moment? Can you just be my strength, for I’m losing it?”
But as for me, my prayer is to You,
O Lord, in the acceptable time;
O God, in the multitude of Your mercy,
Hear me in the truth of Your salvation. (Psalm 69:13)
Not long afterwards, I was laid at Jesus’ feet. His salvation, and the complete forgiveness, comfort and knowledge of the truth it brought, washed over me like an avalanche. And I have never been the same since.
He took my sins, every single one of them, in exchange for life. He took my fears in exchange for His peace. A kind of peace that passes all understanding. He took my pain in exchange for His love. He took my burden in exchange for His rest. He took my weakness in exchange for His strength. He took my shame in exchange for His beauty. He took my brokenness in exchange for His healing.
Amazing, abundant, unspeakable grace!
I will praise the name of God with a song,
And will magnify Him with thanksgiving. (Psalm 69:30)
For all He’s done, I will forever praise Him. Below is one of my favorite worship songs that I often sing to the Lord in my private worship time. I share it with you.