I am pausing in my walk so I could listen more to the voice of the Lord and less to the din of this noisy and busy world. It is hard to hear Him when I’m speeding by or lost in the thick of activities that I place myself into.
I am pausing because I am really desiring to live a genuine life and I would like to examine myself and ask me these questions:
Am I really walking before the Lord in a way that is pleasing in His sight? Am I following Him, greatly desiring to be like Him? Or, am I doing the things that I do because it pleases me when I am appreciated, praised, admired?
I am pausing because I want to be true in everything I do, not to please myself but to please God, to “see” His smile of pleasure and approval, not the approval of people.
I am pausing because, even though I have all these desires in my heart, on my own, I don’t really know how to be that kind of person – a true, Christ-like Christ-follower. I need the Lord Jesus to change me, mold me, teach me.
I am pausing because I know I need to know Him more, the God of the Universe, the merciful Lord whose Spirit dwells in my heart. There is a need for me, and for all who want to follow Him, to know Him more, to grow in His grace and in the knowledge of Him.
I am pausing because I need Him to lead me in the paths He wanted me to tread and to guide me every step of the way, because my will and my way get easily entangled with the world’s. Not that I go the world’s way, but my errant emotions taint the purity of my earnest desires.
I am pausing because I know that there are still so many things needed to be learned, those things that have an impact on eternity.
I am pausing because I need to be nearer my Lord so I could know and learn Him more, for the nearer I am to the world, the farther I am to looking like Christ. The more I get acquainted with the world, the more I think and feel like the world.
I am pausing because I realized that it is really a waste of time not to live a genuine Christ-like life. Not that I had been living in hypocrisy while serving the Lord, but I know that deep inside, I didn’t really have this heart-piercing desire – a real aching – to walk, talk, and look like Him every single day, for if I had, I shouldn’t have often let weaknesses, temptations and selfish desires and motives carve a different image of me and not that of Christ’s. For while I strive to practice long-suffering every single day, the times that I had been impatient dot my calendar.
I am pausing because I know that to really delight in the Lord is to seek His face more diligently and linger in His comforting presence. And He reminds me of the Israelites journeying in the wilderness under Moses’ leadership – how His presence went with them as they journeyed to the Promised Land.
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When the cloud settled and abode on the tabernacle, they journeyed not. They rested in their tents until the cloud was taken up again, then they journeyed. Whether a day, a week, or a whole year that the cloud tarried upon the tabernacle, they would obediently wait and journey not. (See Numbers 9).
This is the practice of pausing: waiting, watching, and listening to the voice of the Lord for His instructions – whether to stay or go or whatever He wants us to do. He wants that His presence go with us. And I want that, too, for just like Moses who refused to journey without the Lord’s presence in their midst, so I will not, and cannot, journey without Him.